Feel Of Love

i told myself before i will wait the truth feeling of love...
but...
at last i found in in front me...
i wait this kind of feeling very long time ago...
but...
i still don know whether you're SINGLE or IN RELATIONSHIP...
but...
i still don know u much...
but...
i keep continue this feel till the moment i give up...
but...
i won't tell u until i can't keep this feeling anymore...
but...
i will make u know that who am i...
but...
i wanna u to know who am i...
but...
i hope u will regret...

before u regret i will let u know how am feel bout u...
before u make a choice i hope tat u won't regret...
before u make a choice i hope u don mind wat my status is...
before u make a choice i hope u will treat and don betray me...
before u make a choice i hope your parent know who am i...

why my feel of love at last appear on me???
i still don understand??
ur smile?
ur eye?
ur face?
or ur body??

actually my answer i will tell u later how u attract me...
i juz don get it...
ur not a really beauty to me...
but other people think tat ur a beauty...
to me i don think tat..
feel is feel...

i won't force u together with me until u know my status...
but i will tell u my status...
the most funny this tat is my kai ma...
she say tat my eyes is a scanner...
1 shot hit all point of ur status...
but 2nd time i see u..
u have make my scanner spoil for 2 days...
LOL~

but tat day is my last view of u..
i have eyes contact with u so long..
u attract me more and more...
but i won't so rush to get u...
maybe my fren think tat i writing tat person they know..
i only tell to my best fren know...

i can't sleep well..
my brain keep thinking of you??
why???
i will wait u till the end....



SUPERHUMAN
Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

Monthly and Daily...

i done many good thing and bad thing around this month...
i feel tat something is happening between my friend and cousin...
i got got thing to tell to my cousin actually is wat happening around me and him...
i starting to get stress till end of the august...

am i in love??
am i be in love by somebody else??
am i a playboy???
the answer is in front of ur eyes...

happening early of the month..
i was thinking whether my choice of choosing u is correct or wrong...
my brain keep on confusing me...
but i will delay ur answer longer and longer...
not i wanna do this to you...
i just wanna understand u more and let u have time to understand me more and more...
love doesn't mean got feel and couple...
the answer is NO...
do you think couple is easy??
NO~
but i feel something tat very strange bout u and me...
i think we're from different world..
my cousin let me see something and make shock...
i starting to ask myself...
i just saw u 1 time only...
wat make u feel tat u like me??
the answer is in ur heart...
LOVE???
do you know wat is love??

i think u still wondering whether am i single or couple??
the answer only my lover know...
but in my heart a lover just 1...
not 2....
but the 1 maybe thinking tat i'm playboy...
but do you know my heart only got you...
maybe i say out these word my friend will think tat i'm playboy...
i don mind..
do they know wat am i thinking??

i like mature...
i like good thinking...
i like cute...
i like smile...
i like polite...
i like natural...

but i don like u act...
whether u act i can see thru u..
but i will take longer time to understand u...
i will make u happier and happier...
but i will fight and quarell with u...
quarell and fight me can understand each other more and more...
but when i tell u something...
u will tell out all ur fren...

do you know these kind of react is wat kind of character??
those housewives having nothing to do at home and talk about people kepo thing...
i hate those kind of people...
but...
if u wanna tell then u go ahead...
someday u will get paid and said sorry to the person...

maybe somebody will think tat i like triangle love..
ur answer wrong...
maybe my cousin and friend will think tat somebody tat they know...
their answer NO either...
the answer only i know...
but i will tell tat person... wat happening....
i wan him/her to understand the situation...
the answer only my mom and my kai ma know...
i wondering if there any people talking about my thing behind me...
if YES...
step in front me and tell me...
but i think they don dare...
they dare to talk but don dare to act...
BULLSHIT~!!
i don mind wat u talking..
wanna know the truth answer...
ask me...
i will tell u every answer...

maybe tat person like me also the same kind of people..
who care...
just be who u really are..
NATURAL~

but i will be single for along time...
cause the real thing haven't appear in front of me...
take ur time to think wat am i thinking...
understand me more...

my competition is near by...
i don wan because of YOU make me can't concentrate...

wat inspire me to write blog...
because of 1 song...

KNOCK YOU DOWN
by
Keri Hilson ft. Kanye West , Ne-Yo....

thanks for this song...

Love and Hate

Love and Hate:

sunshine full fill the sky,
that the moment how we met,
make a war in the cabin,
that the way how we talk,
beautiful moon full fill with star,
that the way we drink together,

morning sunshine wake up from the bef,
that the way i like your chubby face,
make a memories you can't forget,
that the way we look each other,
next morning don't know how,
that the way i don't know how to talk,
full fill confidence and make it right,
that the way i will hold your hands,

back to home and wait your mail,
that the way we keep in touch,
make a confidence to say out my word,
that the way i gonna tell you,
make a confidence to say LOVE YOU,
that the way i said I LOVE YOU,

wait next day keep the feeling,
that the way how i feel,
you make myself full dissapointment,
that the way you wanna become friend,
full fill with weirdness that how i feel,
that the way how i know,
keep secret from each other,
that the way everyone knows,

people know secret and spread the word,
that the way you hate me for life,
i write a poem with my tears,
that the way i want people feel,
don't blame yourselve for everything you do,
that the way its make it hurt,

just tell me what do you want,
that the way i will help,
forget the hate and forget the past,
that the way will you happy.


true love is not everybody can get...
remember...
couple must tell the truth to each other...
ur lover tell u secret...
MUST KEEP IT...
don let people know...
if not u will get blame...

while i writing this poem...
i listening a song name...
AKON - SORRY,BLAME IT ON ME...

i get blame again...

The Moment In Love and Break My Heart

1st day i saw u and i'm in love with you...
but we not know each other very well...
i have some kind of special feeling while i looking at you...
you not my dream girl...
but i got tat feeling...
i keep asking wat happen to me??

why am i so easy in love??
why
why why..
why why why...

2nd day i saw u with the wake up face...
i feel tat i wanna pinch your face...
with ur chubby face...
when i bring u go out from the and shooping...
i wanna hold ur hand..
but i don dare...
while u shopping with her...
beside me tell me alot thing bout u..
i know u can't let ur ex go...
i'm feeling tat i gonna give up on u...
but i not so easy to give up..

3rd day u with me in the car...
while i fetching ur fren to bus station...
i feel tat we're the same..
but i keep telling myself we're not the same...
after send ur fren to the bus...
i wanna hold ur hand and go back to the car...
while in the car...
u tell me alot bout ur secret...
since u tell me alot secret...
and i telling u back my secret...
while i fetching u go to ur ex house and take back ur ic...
i was waiting inside the car and ask myself...
why i'm not going down with u...
at the night..
we drink chivas together..
and ur drunk face is so cute...
when at the dance floor...
u say u wanna see me dance...
i dance for u...
but the moment i dance...
i keep call u to dance...
and u dance...

izit tat is ur 1st dance??
when reach home...
we watch movie together...
at the same room...
incredible...(don simply think)

4th day the morning...
not i don wan talk to u...
just i don know how to talk to u...
i keep asking myself while i eating..
why why why??
how could this happen??

i like ur singing while ur at the bus stop...
ur voice very nice..
while walking to the bus...
i plan to not gonna hold ur hand...
but i can't control myself to hand ur hand..
after hold hand...
i'm in love...

5th day i know u...
the night i chat u in the phone...
u keep ask me how now??
and u keep say YOU DON KNOW..
but...
i prepare to tell u tat i'm in love with u...
but u say OK...

6th day tat i know u...
u tell..
I WAS THINKING WHOLE NIGHT...
HOW BOUT BECOME FREN 1ST...
i'm ok bout it...
then i keep listen to say title name...
KISS ME THRU THE PHONE...
the song is keep making thinking bout u...

the 7th day i know u..
i found out something...
my heart so pain..
u told not to tell the secret...
but u making somebody to know the secret...
my hurt so pain...

i tell my fren...
while i writing this blog...


here is my little poem to you..

Ever since I met you,
I've had these feelings deep inside,
mainly when you hold me,
and look into my eyes,
you make me feel so young again,
and give me feelings I'd forgot,
you make me feel so happy,
with cupids arrow I've been shot.

I'm NOT SCARE..but I'm NERVOUS

5 day left to my competition...
everybody ask me...
r u scare..
i answer them i say YES...but not nervous...
but i realize tat i not scare but nervous...
i'm my steps and hand technic...


HOW~!!!
SAFE ME~!!!
I'M SURVIVOR TOO~!!

but...
i only know there is nobody can safe me...
not like my 2 student...
they are taking part too...
but they different...
the got my principal help...

me different...
i helping myself...
i quite jealous to see them got ppl help...
i quite angry...
i quite wanna steal their move...

but i don wan to do tat...
i wan try my best to get it..
i wan to get the spotlight from them...
i wan get wat i wan...
i wan fight with them...

alot ppl say tat i'm very good..
actually i don think i'm good...
i just an ordinary person with normal life...

1 of my student is my ex...
i don like her 1 thing...
she like to steal my move and tell ppl tat move is she created...
i would to say to her..
WAD DA F**K

sometimes i feel like wanna slap her and tell her...
who teach you till this level??
who teach you new move??
who teach you new funky move??
who teach you wat is dance all about??
who teach you dance is all about feel and passion full of love??
who teach you???
tell me???

but...
i wait till u realize wat is wrong and wat is rite...
i just wait...

this competition...
i juz wait the result and see who the best...

Love You

actually i still miss u..
just u don wan give me a chance...
i wan u be my life partner...
i wan u become my dance partner...
i wan u forever at my side....
i wan u together with me...
i wan spent my rest of life with u...

why u don give me a chance together with u again??
u know how painful am i everytime when i see u??
can u tell me??
do u know how am i feel bout u??
do u know how am i feel everyday??
do u know how am i lost my sense of dance everytime??
do u know??

every second..
every minute..
every hour..
every day..
every month...

do u know i still thinking bout u..
each time i see u break up..
i asking myself..
why i wanna let u go??
do u know how am i feel??

sometimes i feel regret and i wanna suicide...
each of my happy moment...
i share with u..
once u gone..
i wanna suicide myself...
but...
if i suicide who take care of u??
i promise u before i gonna take care of u forever...
almost 1 year...
i keep on thinking of u...
but u like don care bout it...
i wanna tell u bout it...
but i scare u angry me and make the situation more worst...

when i break up with u...
each time i couple....
i can't feel my opponent love...

but u different...
i can feel u..
i can sense u...
i feel like my body separate to you...
do you know when i break up with u i lost my sense of dance??
do you know??
i kept this word very long in my heart...
i can't keep it any more...
i must say out in here...

next competition will be in 28.2.2009
i starting to get pressure...
i hope u will come and see me...