I'm NOT SCARE..but I'm NERVOUS

5 day left to my competition...
everybody ask me...
r u scare..
i answer them i say YES...but not nervous...
but i realize tat i not scare but nervous...
i'm my steps and hand technic...


HOW~!!!
SAFE ME~!!!
I'M SURVIVOR TOO~!!

but...
i only know there is nobody can safe me...
not like my 2 student...
they are taking part too...
but they different...
the got my principal help...

me different...
i helping myself...
i quite jealous to see them got ppl help...
i quite angry...
i quite wanna steal their move...

but i don wan to do tat...
i wan try my best to get it..
i wan to get the spotlight from them...
i wan get wat i wan...
i wan fight with them...

alot ppl say tat i'm very good..
actually i don think i'm good...
i just an ordinary person with normal life...

1 of my student is my ex...
i don like her 1 thing...
she like to steal my move and tell ppl tat move is she created...
i would to say to her..
WAD DA F**K

sometimes i feel like wanna slap her and tell her...
who teach you till this level??
who teach you new move??
who teach you new funky move??
who teach you wat is dance all about??
who teach you dance is all about feel and passion full of love??
who teach you???
tell me???

but...
i wait till u realize wat is wrong and wat is rite...
i just wait...

this competition...
i juz wait the result and see who the best...

Love You

actually i still miss u..
just u don wan give me a chance...
i wan u be my life partner...
i wan u become my dance partner...
i wan u forever at my side....
i wan u together with me...
i wan spent my rest of life with u...

why u don give me a chance together with u again??
u know how painful am i everytime when i see u??
can u tell me??
do u know how am i feel bout u??
do u know how am i feel everyday??
do u know how am i lost my sense of dance everytime??
do u know??

every second..
every minute..
every hour..
every day..
every month...

do u know i still thinking bout u..
each time i see u break up..
i asking myself..
why i wanna let u go??
do u know how am i feel??

sometimes i feel regret and i wanna suicide...
each of my happy moment...
i share with u..
once u gone..
i wanna suicide myself...
but...
if i suicide who take care of u??
i promise u before i gonna take care of u forever...
almost 1 year...
i keep on thinking of u...
but u like don care bout it...
i wanna tell u bout it...
but i scare u angry me and make the situation more worst...

when i break up with u...
each time i couple....
i can't feel my opponent love...

but u different...
i can feel u..
i can sense u...
i feel like my body separate to you...
do you know when i break up with u i lost my sense of dance??
do you know??
i kept this word very long in my heart...
i can't keep it any more...
i must say out in here...

next competition will be in 28.2.2009
i starting to get pressure...
i hope u will come and see me...